If there’s one word that sums up my 2021 so far, it’s ‘change.’ I moved from Nebraska to Oklahoma a couple of weeks ago. Started a new job two days after that. Began attending a new church. It’s been crazy, but good, since God made it clear that this is what I’m supposed to do. Still, I struggled with the process of change. I’m such a creature of habit, and even the smallest deviation from my comfort zone can toss me into anxiety and self-doubt.
At one point in the middle of the
move—literally the middle, since I was driving the U-Haul through Kansas—a
feeling of complete aloneness nearly drowned me. Was God really in all this?
Did He care? Had He left me alone? The thoughts swirling through my mind stole
my peace.
My cats, Kassie Elizabeth and Oliver, were in
their cat carriers in a drug-induced sleep. No, I’m not a mean cat mom. Poor
Kassie Elizabeth nearly had a stress-induced aneurism the last time I drove her
to the vet, and I figured an eight hour drive might do her in completely. But
even though the Gabapentin should have held out for another four hours, she
woke up and started to cry. Terror toned her sad little meows. Unsure how to
calm her down, I poked my fingers through the wire door and told her everything
would be okay. I wouldn’t leave her. She was safe. She rubbed her head against
my fingers and fell asleep.
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Enjoyed your honesty. I’m struggling with high blood pressure, some genetics, some stress related. Pray God will bring it down to really safe levels! The book looks interesting and good summer read.
ReplyDeleteI just prayed for you. Medical troubles are never good :(
DeleteSo far, fairly good, as far as 2021 goes. May is a very busy month for us but we have had a few blessings, we celebrated our 50th anniversary on the 15th, a grandson graduated from high school on the 16th, but the best happened on the 5th, we now have a second great-grandson. The sad part he isn't close so we haven't seen him in person yet, in part due to all of the doctor appointments this month, only 8 between the two of us lol.
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I'll pray that you get to see your new great-grandson soon. :)
DeleteI am not a big fan of change either, so I understand your feelings there. I am so glad you were able to find peace and so was Ms. Kassie Elizabeth. I think you are a great fur mama making sure they would be comfortable for that long trip since they don't understand what is going on. I hope you enjoy where you are living now and everything is going well for you. Do you have a lot of hiking trails around where you live now? My 2021 has been going okay, been a little burnt out at work and feeling a big need for a vacation but I'll get over it. We are taking a mini vacation hopefully over Memorial Day weekend as long as everything works out for us. So prayers for that would be wonderful. Thanks so much for sharing A.D.
ReplyDeleteThere are lots of trails here! I hiked one last weekend and plan to go out a lot this summer. I'll be praying you have a wonderful Memorial Day weekend and are able to do everything you plan. :)
DeleteChange is tough. We are dealing with that ourselves. Moving almost distroyed our marriage. We are still working on it and the hurt we caused each other. I hope I never do it again. Looking forward to brighter tomorrows
ReplyDeleteI'll be praying for you Nancy <3
DeleteNot as busy as yours that for sure. February and March are hard months for me to get through. I lost the favorite of my brothers in February (2013). And, I lost my dad in early March (1999). I lost my mom on Easter Eve (March, 2002) we haven’t really done anything like moving. That’s no fun at all! (My dad worked for the government and every few years we were moving and I hated it! We are trying to going to IN Amish country to visit a friend later in the summer.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for the loss of your family members. I'll pray for you. Hope you're able to visit your friend. Getting away is always a good thing.
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I started 2021 off with a bang! I had right hip replacement on January 6. Sadly my brother passed away on January 4th from Covid. His birthday was the 6th. I talked to him the week before and laughingly told him I was getting a new hip for his birthday. My mom and dad have passed and he was my only sibling so I’m now the only one left from my immediate family. On a happier note my nine yr old grandson accepted Christ recently and will be baptized on May 30.
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DeleteI'm so sorry for your loss! I'll pray for comfort. What a blessing to know that you'll spend eternity in heaven with your grandson!
DeleteI don't like change even when I initiate it! So glad you felt God's presence. And glad your kitties did okay on the trip. That had to be hard.
ReplyDeleteThanks for your honest post! 2021 is doing much better than 202, thank you very much....still retired, but working two part time jobs that I love, plus quilting--my other fav (other one is reading books!). Continued health for my husband and I would be a great prayer request--thank you! chendryx(at)nctv(dot)com
ReplyDeleteI'll be sure to pray for you and your husband :)
DeleteThank you for sharing this story. It is hard to kove to a new place and have thibgs change. I'm a creature of habit as well. What helps me is remembering that my outward circumstances should not dictate my inward identity and thpughts. racheltirzah(at)gmail(dot)com
ReplyDeleteYes! That is so true and a wonderful reminder :)
DeleteI enjoyed reading your post. It was very interesting.
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